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EMBRACE
By
J A Konrath
She comes at night.
I push the rocking chair to the balcony so I may watch her, antique
cherry that squeaks and protests much like my old bones. This affords me
a towering view of my back yard; the hedges trimmed to lollipops, the
fountain cherub eternally spitting water, the ocean in the distance.
The sun takes a lazy bow and exits, raking orange and purple fingers
across my acres of thick lawn. Years ago, it was champagne cocktails and
croquet. Now, I can't even recall the last time I walked the grounds. An
acquaintance, deceased like most, once described men as fine single
malt-- fiery and immature when young, mellowing with age.
I am finally palatable.
The portrait of my younger self hangs above the fireplace, stern face
and eyebrows tempered with resolve. Eyebrows that have grown gray and
bushy and without direction.
Once, I would settle for nothing less than crushing all opposition.
Now, I'll settle for some honey in my tea.
I watch as the mist arrives, a soft, ethereal blanket, glowing in my
yard lights.
She always comes with the mist, and I feel my pulse quicken, warming me.
I drop the blanket from my lap-- I don't need it anymore.
The first sight of her is magic. Awe and wonder, feelings known only to
the young and to me. Worth more than I have ever earned. She is clothed
in translucent blue, the color of the moon, a robe that moves like silk.
Her face is always peaceful, her movements sure, and I am both
enthralled and pacified. Her dance is nature and life, ebb and flow.
Slow, languid turns and comfortable poses, arms always beckoning, the
tune known only to her.
Beneath my balcony she stops and smiles, as she has for many years.
"Dance with me."
Tonight I shall.
I grip the armrests of my rocker with gnarled hands and tremble to my
feet. The thousand pains that plague my days, the gagging pills that
keep me beating, the nights of disquiet-- all nullified by my resolve. I
finally have the strength to know I have none left. The hand has been
played, and folded.
Legs shaky, a yearling, knock-kneed and wide-eyed, I lean over the
railing. Into her arms I fall, and break...
And then I am free. I bow to my Lady, and take her hand. "May I have
this dance?"
The music is crisp in my ears, light and airy. I embrace her, and we
waltz on the mist, above my lawn, away from my empty prison. Through the
cherub and the hedges, across the beach, over the sea to chase the sun.
Her mouth flutters closer to mine, soft lips parting.
Black teeth. Sharp.
I cry out, my voice muffled by her hungry kiss, ripping at my face,
peeling, pulling.
I gaze up at her through lidless eyes, milky with red.
Her maw finds my soft belly, bites, probes deep.
I am tugged into the ground by looping coils of innards.
Down.
Down.
Down to heat so strong the very air sears, baking raw flesh without ever
killing nerves.
We dance again on rusty nails, on white coals and fish hooks, my bowels
roping us together for eternity.
For another dance.
And another dance.
THE END
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